"life wasn't worth the balance or the crumpled paper it was written on..."

Listen to this. Ignore the video. Just listen to the song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ED5nXs2Nl_0

The song is Bring me the Disco King by David Bowie and Maynard James Keenan. I am loving it. (Heard it before but for some reason, it's enthralled me now.)

Well, life is beginning to take its toll on me. Everything is starting to suck... I think that yesterday and today, my two most recent off days, have really helped me out a lot. I am growing weary of my job, even though I adore most of my co-workers. (Some more than others.)

I feel sort of trapped. I really want to just drop everything and leave the state. Louisiana is really calling to me for some reason. I loved it there when my family (plus a dumbass stepfather) went some years ago. You ever feel trapped? Sure you do.

My friend Miranda wants to go to Italy. I want to go to Italy, too. We actually looked up houses for sale in Italy, France, Russia and to a lesser serious extent, China. We also looked up homes in Bora Bora because my soul yearns for Bora Bora. It looks so gorgeous and inviting. By the way, Russia has a lot of tiny stuff. They have miniature washing machines in the strangest places. One of the homes for sale had a washing machine right beside the toilet. (Add the fabric softner while pinching a loaf!) Another had a washing machine in the kitchen right beside the stove. (No! I said bread in the oven and jacket in the washing machine, you fool!)

Back to the subject at hand: I called out of work on Thursday and I was scheduled off yesterday and today. These three days of shopping, relaxing, DCUO playing and creating have been what the doctor ordered. I feel a bit better. Small bit that is. I still want to leave the state/country.

I need lots and lots of money to do everything that I want to do.... :/